Post by MIRIAM JACOB on Jan 1, 2007 12:17:17 GMT -5
ANGEL FLYING TOO CLOSE TO THE GROUND
BY PAM GALLO
Dedicated to My Mom
A Journey Back
"To A Moment In Time"
I CAN'T BELIEVE
THAT IT HAD BEEN 14 MONTHS,
SINCE THE DOCTORS TOLD US HOW ILL SHE WAS.
I CAN'T IMAGINE
THAT SHE HAD FOUGHT THIS BATTLE WITH CANCER
FOR ALL OF THESE MONTHS.
EACH AND EVERYDAY.
AS THOSE FINAL MOMENTS CAME TOWARD US ,
I HAD TRIED TO PREPARE MYSELF ;
MY MOTHER
&
MY CHILDREN
FOR THE MOMENT IN TIME,
WHEN
WE HAD TO RELEASE HER
BACK TO GOD.
IN ALL FAIRNESS AND HONESTY,
I HAVE TO SAY :
AS SELFISH AS IT MAY SOUND,
YOU NEVER GIVE UP THAT CONTROL
TO GOD OR ANYONE EASILY.
WE HOLD TIGHTLY
UNTIL WE CAN NO LONGER BEAR
TO TRY AND HOLD A SPIRIT THAT NEEDS
AND WANTS TO SOAR INTO THE HEAVENS.
AND THEN...
WE EITHER JUST SAY GOODBYE.
OR...
WE FLY WITH THEM UNTIL THEY
SAY GOODBYE TO US.
THIS IS AN ACCOUNT OF MY LAST HOURS
WITH MY MOTHER.
IT HAS NEVER BEEN TOLD BEFORE.
THE REASON FOR TELLING IT IS THAT
I AM SO SURE, THAT MY ACCOUNT OF THIS TIME
IS NOT UNIQUE.
BUT
WHAT I AM SURE OF IS
THIS MOMENT IN TIME IS REAL .
THIS MOMENT IN TIME GIVES HOPE.
THIS MOMENT IN TIME IS PURE LIGHT.
THIS MOMENT IN TIME IS LOVE.
THIS MOMENT IN TIME IS A GIFT.
And ...
THIS MOMENT IN TIME NEEDS
TO FINALLY BE SHARED.
IT WAS JUNE 29TH 2003 .
A BEAUTIFUL, SUNNY DAY.
A SUNDAY MORNING, AFTER A LONG ENDLESS NIGHT .
IT WAS : MY DAUGHTER'S ( STACEY) BIRTHDAY .
SOMEHOW I KNEW THAT THIS DAY WOULD BE
THE DAY THAT MOM WOULD LEAVE US FOR HEAVEN.
MOM WANTED SO DESPERATELY
TO JUST STAY FOR THE KIDS BIRTHDAYS.
MY SONS BIRTHDAY WAS COMING UP IN AUGUST.
BUT THIS DAY
WE CELEBRATED BIRTHDAYS ONE LAST TIME ,
COLLECTIVELY.
EARLY THAT MORNING
AFTER ADMINISTERING MEDICATION
ON THE HOUR TO MOM,
IT SEEMED EVIDENT, THAT THIS DAY MOM WOULD
BE IN HEAVEN WITH EVERYONE
SHE LOVED AND MISSED SO MUCH.
I WANTED.
NO.....
I NEEDED ...
TO BE CLOSE TO HER.
MOM, WAS NOT SO MUCH AFRAID OF DYING.
SHE WAS AFRAID OF LEAVING US.
SO, AS I LAID NEXT TO HER ON THE BED,
MY SON PUT ON HER FAVORITE MUSIC.
AS WILLIE NELSON SANG SOFTLY
INTO THE WARM MORNING AIR.
AS HER FAVORITE CANDLES BURNED
SWEETLY IN THE ROOM.
AS SUNLIGHT GLISTENED
THROUGH THE WINDOWS .
AS MY SON RUBBED HER FAVORITE
( BABY LOTION) ONTO HER
FEVERED SKIN.
AS I TOUCHED HER CHEEK AND SPOKE
OF THE TIMES....
ALL OF OUR TIMES ...
TOGETHER
HERE ON THIS EARTH.
THE JOURNEY TO HEAVEN BEGAN.
"MOMMY ", TODAY IS STACEY'S BIRTHDAY.
YOU WANTED TO BE HERE FOR STACEY'S BIRTHDAY.
STACEY IS TILL SLEEPING, AND SHE IS SO SAD TODAY.
MOMMY, DO YOU REMEMBER HOW DADDY LEFT ME ON MY BIRTHDAY ?
DO YOU REMEMBER THAT I NEVER WANTED TO EVER CELEBRATE MY
BIRTHDAYS EVER AGAIN ,
BECAUSE LOOSING HIM ON THAT DAY LIVED
INSIDE OF ME?
AND HOW ANGRY YOU ALWAYS GOT AT ME...
TELLING ME, TO CELEBRATE.
DO IT FOR MY CHILDREN.
AND YOU MADE ME A CAKE AND MADE ME OPEN
MY BIRTHDAY PRESENTS AND SMILE ANYWAY.
FOR THEM.
WELL MOMMY, I KNOW THAT TODAY,
STACEY WILL KNOW
EXACTLY HOW I FELT.
I NEVER WANTED HER TO GO THROUGH
THE REST OF HER LIFE FEELING LIKE THAT.
I KNOW THAT YOU DIDN'T EITHER.
BUT YOU JUST NEEDED TO
BE HERE FOR HER SPECIAL DAY.
SHE WILL UNDERSTAND.
ONE DAY SHE WILL BE ABLE TO SEE,
THAT IT WAS THE BEST
GIFT YOU COULD EVER HAVE GIVEN HER.
ONE DAY.
BUT MOMMY,
I DON'T WANT HER TO WAKE UP THIS DAY
AND FOR HER TO COME
INTO THIS ROOM
AND FOREVER HOLD IN HER MIND AND HEART
THE MEMORY OF YOU LIKE THIS.
I WANT HER TO ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU
WAKING HER UP LAUGHING.
BEAUTIFUL AND BRIGHT.
WITH HER BIRTHDAY GIFTS
WAITING FOR HER IN THE LIVING ROOM.
PLEASE MOMMY.
I WILL GO WITH YOU MOM.
I WILL WALK SLOWLY WITH YOU.
WE DON'T HAVE TO RUSH.
WE CAN TAKE OUR TIME.
I WILL WALK WITH YOU
ALL THE WAY TO HEAVEN.
I WONT BE ABLE TO GO INSIDE.
BUT WHEN YOUR READY, YOU CAN LET GO OF MY HAND.
I PROMISE NOT TO LEAVE YOU UNTIL YOUR READY.
DON'T BE AFRAID MOMMY.
JUST KEEP HOLDING MY HAND.
I KNOW THAT MY SON
WAS IN THE ROOM WITH US.
I KNOW THAT MY DAUGHTER
WAS SLEEPING SOUNDLY IN HER BED.
I KNOW AS " WILLIE NELSON " SANG :
" ANGEL FLYING TOO CLOSE TO THE GROUND "
MOMMY HEARD EVERY WORD I SPOKE TO HER.
I KNOW SHE WAS NO LONGER AFRAID.
AND
I KNEW WE HAD BEGUN OUR JOURNEY TO HEAVEN.
THE AIR IN THE ROOM CHANGED.
THE COLORS IN THE ROOM CHANGED.
THE SOUNDS WHERE MUTED.
THE WORDS CAME SOFTLY FROM MY THROAT.
A MIXTURE OF AWE, SADNESS, JOY, AND DISBELIEF
ENGULFED ME WITH TOTAL REALITY.
WE WERE WALKING TOGETHER.
HAND IN HAND.
GAZING AT THE BEAUTY ON EITHER SIDE OF US.
PURE GOLDEN BRILLIANCE AND LIGHT.
WARMTH.
SERENITY.
CALM.
JOY AND EXCITEMENT.
NO FEAR.
I KEPT MUTTERING...
IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL MOMMY.
IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL.
THANK YOU MOMMY. THANK YOU MOMMY.
IT SEEMED LIKE WE HAD SLOWLY WALKED FOR HOURS.
TAKING IN EACH GLORIOUS SITE.
EACH COMFORTING EMOTION.
PULLING THE GOLDEN BEAUTY INTO OURSELVES.
BEING A PART OF THIS GOLDEN LIGHT.
I REMEMBER SAYING.
WE ARE ALMOST THERE MOMMY.
ONLY A LITTLE FURTHER.
BUT I PROMISED YOU
I WOULDN'T LEAVE
UNTIL YOU WERE READY
TO LET GO OF MY HAND .
THE JOURNEY WAS INFINITE.
THE JOURNEY WAS ETERNAL.
THE JOURNEY TOOK INFINITY.
THE JOURNEY PURE GOLDEN LIGHT AND LOVE.
THE JOURNEY WAS ENDED.
A SMILE.
A LOOK THAT SAID...
GOODBYE.
I LOVE YOU.
I AM NOT AFRAID.
YOU WERE RIGHT.
IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL.
I AM HOME.
YOU CAN LET GO OF MY HAND NOW.
PEACE.
LIGHT.
LOVE.
REALITY.
THE GIFT OF A WALK TO HEAVEN.
FOREVER BURNED INTO MY SOUL.
IT WAS OVER.
IT WAS ONLY MOMENTS .
" ANGEL FLYING TOO CLOSE TO THE GROUND "
WORDS, BURNING THEMSELVES INTO ME FOREVER.
NEVER TO BE FORGOTTEN.
ALWAYS HAVING MORE OF A MEANING
THEN I THINK
WAS EVER MEANT TO.
GOODBYE MY ANGEL.
I LOVE YOU MOMMY.
THANK YOU MOMMY.
IT WAS BEAUTIFUL.
THAT NIGHT
I PLACED ALL OF STACEY'S BIRTHDAY GIFTS
IN THE LIVING ROOM.
I SAT IN THE CHAIR MOMMY ALWAYS SAT.
WITH FAMILY GATHERED AROUND US ,
TEARS FLOWING FREELY
FROM ALL OF OUR EYES,
IT WAS TIME...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY ANGEL STACEY.
OPEN YOUR GIFTS.
I LOVE YOU.
GRAMMY LOVES YOU.
OH YES, THERE IS SOMETHING THERE FROM HER.
SHE TOOK CARE OF THAT A LONG TIME AGO.
I KNOW IT WILL BE A VERY LONG TIME BEFORE YOU WILL EVER
CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTHDAY LIKE WE DID BEFORE.
MAYBE NEVER.
BUT YOU WILL FOREVER KNOW
THAT THIS DAY...
GRAMMY ENTERED A PLACE
MORE BEAUTIFUL
MORE GLORIOUS
AND FILLED WITH MORE LOVE
THEN YOU COULD EVER IMAGINE.
YOU WILL KNOW THIS BECAUSE
I HAVE SEEN IT.
AND
I AM TELLING YOU THIS.
I HAVE SEEN IT....
IF ONLY FOR A MOMENT IN TIME.
AND
I HAVE NEVER LIED TO YOU.
THIS IS TRUTH.
THIS IS ALL TRUTH.
THE END IS....
NEVER.
INFINITY & BEYOND.
BY: PAM GALLO
(C) 2006
BY PAM GALLO
Dedicated to My Mom
A Journey Back
"To A Moment In Time"
I CAN'T BELIEVE
THAT IT HAD BEEN 14 MONTHS,
SINCE THE DOCTORS TOLD US HOW ILL SHE WAS.
I CAN'T IMAGINE
THAT SHE HAD FOUGHT THIS BATTLE WITH CANCER
FOR ALL OF THESE MONTHS.
EACH AND EVERYDAY.
AS THOSE FINAL MOMENTS CAME TOWARD US ,
I HAD TRIED TO PREPARE MYSELF ;
MY MOTHER
&
MY CHILDREN
FOR THE MOMENT IN TIME,
WHEN
WE HAD TO RELEASE HER
BACK TO GOD.
IN ALL FAIRNESS AND HONESTY,
I HAVE TO SAY :
AS SELFISH AS IT MAY SOUND,
YOU NEVER GIVE UP THAT CONTROL
TO GOD OR ANYONE EASILY.
WE HOLD TIGHTLY
UNTIL WE CAN NO LONGER BEAR
TO TRY AND HOLD A SPIRIT THAT NEEDS
AND WANTS TO SOAR INTO THE HEAVENS.
AND THEN...
WE EITHER JUST SAY GOODBYE.
OR...
WE FLY WITH THEM UNTIL THEY
SAY GOODBYE TO US.
THIS IS AN ACCOUNT OF MY LAST HOURS
WITH MY MOTHER.
IT HAS NEVER BEEN TOLD BEFORE.
THE REASON FOR TELLING IT IS THAT
I AM SO SURE, THAT MY ACCOUNT OF THIS TIME
IS NOT UNIQUE.
BUT
WHAT I AM SURE OF IS
THIS MOMENT IN TIME IS REAL .
THIS MOMENT IN TIME GIVES HOPE.
THIS MOMENT IN TIME IS PURE LIGHT.
THIS MOMENT IN TIME IS LOVE.
THIS MOMENT IN TIME IS A GIFT.
And ...
THIS MOMENT IN TIME NEEDS
TO FINALLY BE SHARED.
IT WAS JUNE 29TH 2003 .
A BEAUTIFUL, SUNNY DAY.
A SUNDAY MORNING, AFTER A LONG ENDLESS NIGHT .
IT WAS : MY DAUGHTER'S ( STACEY) BIRTHDAY .
SOMEHOW I KNEW THAT THIS DAY WOULD BE
THE DAY THAT MOM WOULD LEAVE US FOR HEAVEN.
MOM WANTED SO DESPERATELY
TO JUST STAY FOR THE KIDS BIRTHDAYS.
MY SONS BIRTHDAY WAS COMING UP IN AUGUST.
BUT THIS DAY
WE CELEBRATED BIRTHDAYS ONE LAST TIME ,
COLLECTIVELY.
EARLY THAT MORNING
AFTER ADMINISTERING MEDICATION
ON THE HOUR TO MOM,
IT SEEMED EVIDENT, THAT THIS DAY MOM WOULD
BE IN HEAVEN WITH EVERYONE
SHE LOVED AND MISSED SO MUCH.
I WANTED.
NO.....
I NEEDED ...
TO BE CLOSE TO HER.
MOM, WAS NOT SO MUCH AFRAID OF DYING.
SHE WAS AFRAID OF LEAVING US.
SO, AS I LAID NEXT TO HER ON THE BED,
MY SON PUT ON HER FAVORITE MUSIC.
AS WILLIE NELSON SANG SOFTLY
INTO THE WARM MORNING AIR.
AS HER FAVORITE CANDLES BURNED
SWEETLY IN THE ROOM.
AS SUNLIGHT GLISTENED
THROUGH THE WINDOWS .
AS MY SON RUBBED HER FAVORITE
( BABY LOTION) ONTO HER
FEVERED SKIN.
AS I TOUCHED HER CHEEK AND SPOKE
OF THE TIMES....
ALL OF OUR TIMES ...
TOGETHER
HERE ON THIS EARTH.
THE JOURNEY TO HEAVEN BEGAN.
"MOMMY ", TODAY IS STACEY'S BIRTHDAY.
YOU WANTED TO BE HERE FOR STACEY'S BIRTHDAY.
STACEY IS TILL SLEEPING, AND SHE IS SO SAD TODAY.
MOMMY, DO YOU REMEMBER HOW DADDY LEFT ME ON MY BIRTHDAY ?
DO YOU REMEMBER THAT I NEVER WANTED TO EVER CELEBRATE MY
BIRTHDAYS EVER AGAIN ,
BECAUSE LOOSING HIM ON THAT DAY LIVED
INSIDE OF ME?
AND HOW ANGRY YOU ALWAYS GOT AT ME...
TELLING ME, TO CELEBRATE.
DO IT FOR MY CHILDREN.
AND YOU MADE ME A CAKE AND MADE ME OPEN
MY BIRTHDAY PRESENTS AND SMILE ANYWAY.
FOR THEM.
WELL MOMMY, I KNOW THAT TODAY,
STACEY WILL KNOW
EXACTLY HOW I FELT.
I NEVER WANTED HER TO GO THROUGH
THE REST OF HER LIFE FEELING LIKE THAT.
I KNOW THAT YOU DIDN'T EITHER.
BUT YOU JUST NEEDED TO
BE HERE FOR HER SPECIAL DAY.
SHE WILL UNDERSTAND.
ONE DAY SHE WILL BE ABLE TO SEE,
THAT IT WAS THE BEST
GIFT YOU COULD EVER HAVE GIVEN HER.
ONE DAY.
BUT MOMMY,
I DON'T WANT HER TO WAKE UP THIS DAY
AND FOR HER TO COME
INTO THIS ROOM
AND FOREVER HOLD IN HER MIND AND HEART
THE MEMORY OF YOU LIKE THIS.
I WANT HER TO ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU
WAKING HER UP LAUGHING.
BEAUTIFUL AND BRIGHT.
WITH HER BIRTHDAY GIFTS
WAITING FOR HER IN THE LIVING ROOM.
PLEASE MOMMY.
I WILL GO WITH YOU MOM.
I WILL WALK SLOWLY WITH YOU.
WE DON'T HAVE TO RUSH.
WE CAN TAKE OUR TIME.
I WILL WALK WITH YOU
ALL THE WAY TO HEAVEN.
I WONT BE ABLE TO GO INSIDE.
BUT WHEN YOUR READY, YOU CAN LET GO OF MY HAND.
I PROMISE NOT TO LEAVE YOU UNTIL YOUR READY.
DON'T BE AFRAID MOMMY.
JUST KEEP HOLDING MY HAND.
I KNOW THAT MY SON
WAS IN THE ROOM WITH US.
I KNOW THAT MY DAUGHTER
WAS SLEEPING SOUNDLY IN HER BED.
I KNOW AS " WILLIE NELSON " SANG :
" ANGEL FLYING TOO CLOSE TO THE GROUND "
MOMMY HEARD EVERY WORD I SPOKE TO HER.
I KNOW SHE WAS NO LONGER AFRAID.
AND
I KNEW WE HAD BEGUN OUR JOURNEY TO HEAVEN.
THE AIR IN THE ROOM CHANGED.
THE COLORS IN THE ROOM CHANGED.
THE SOUNDS WHERE MUTED.
THE WORDS CAME SOFTLY FROM MY THROAT.
A MIXTURE OF AWE, SADNESS, JOY, AND DISBELIEF
ENGULFED ME WITH TOTAL REALITY.
WE WERE WALKING TOGETHER.
HAND IN HAND.
GAZING AT THE BEAUTY ON EITHER SIDE OF US.
PURE GOLDEN BRILLIANCE AND LIGHT.
WARMTH.
SERENITY.
CALM.
JOY AND EXCITEMENT.
NO FEAR.
I KEPT MUTTERING...
IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL MOMMY.
IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL.
THANK YOU MOMMY. THANK YOU MOMMY.
IT SEEMED LIKE WE HAD SLOWLY WALKED FOR HOURS.
TAKING IN EACH GLORIOUS SITE.
EACH COMFORTING EMOTION.
PULLING THE GOLDEN BEAUTY INTO OURSELVES.
BEING A PART OF THIS GOLDEN LIGHT.
I REMEMBER SAYING.
WE ARE ALMOST THERE MOMMY.
ONLY A LITTLE FURTHER.
BUT I PROMISED YOU
I WOULDN'T LEAVE
UNTIL YOU WERE READY
TO LET GO OF MY HAND .
THE JOURNEY WAS INFINITE.
THE JOURNEY WAS ETERNAL.
THE JOURNEY TOOK INFINITY.
THE JOURNEY PURE GOLDEN LIGHT AND LOVE.
THE JOURNEY WAS ENDED.
A SMILE.
A LOOK THAT SAID...
GOODBYE.
I LOVE YOU.
I AM NOT AFRAID.
YOU WERE RIGHT.
IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL.
I AM HOME.
YOU CAN LET GO OF MY HAND NOW.
PEACE.
LIGHT.
LOVE.
REALITY.
THE GIFT OF A WALK TO HEAVEN.
FOREVER BURNED INTO MY SOUL.
IT WAS OVER.
IT WAS ONLY MOMENTS .
" ANGEL FLYING TOO CLOSE TO THE GROUND "
WORDS, BURNING THEMSELVES INTO ME FOREVER.
NEVER TO BE FORGOTTEN.
ALWAYS HAVING MORE OF A MEANING
THEN I THINK
WAS EVER MEANT TO.
GOODBYE MY ANGEL.
I LOVE YOU MOMMY.
THANK YOU MOMMY.
IT WAS BEAUTIFUL.
THAT NIGHT
I PLACED ALL OF STACEY'S BIRTHDAY GIFTS
IN THE LIVING ROOM.
I SAT IN THE CHAIR MOMMY ALWAYS SAT.
WITH FAMILY GATHERED AROUND US ,
TEARS FLOWING FREELY
FROM ALL OF OUR EYES,
IT WAS TIME...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY ANGEL STACEY.
OPEN YOUR GIFTS.
I LOVE YOU.
GRAMMY LOVES YOU.
OH YES, THERE IS SOMETHING THERE FROM HER.
SHE TOOK CARE OF THAT A LONG TIME AGO.
I KNOW IT WILL BE A VERY LONG TIME BEFORE YOU WILL EVER
CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTHDAY LIKE WE DID BEFORE.
MAYBE NEVER.
BUT YOU WILL FOREVER KNOW
THAT THIS DAY...
GRAMMY ENTERED A PLACE
MORE BEAUTIFUL
MORE GLORIOUS
AND FILLED WITH MORE LOVE
THEN YOU COULD EVER IMAGINE.
YOU WILL KNOW THIS BECAUSE
I HAVE SEEN IT.
AND
I AM TELLING YOU THIS.
I HAVE SEEN IT....
IF ONLY FOR A MOMENT IN TIME.
AND
I HAVE NEVER LIED TO YOU.
THIS IS TRUTH.
THIS IS ALL TRUTH.
THE END IS....
NEVER.
INFINITY & BEYOND.
BY: PAM GALLO
(C) 2006