STATE OF SPEECHLESSNESS

[MIRIAM JACOB]

STATE OF SPEECHLESSNESS


With just one word,

You stilled the storm,

And calmed the raging sea.

With just one word,

You opened the eyes of the blind

And they were able to see.

You can create things, with just one word.

With just a whisper, You can form

Another extravagant star,

But I want to know Lord, are you hearing

The many words that are now

pouring from my heart?



With just one word,

You opened the ears of the deaf.

With just a few words,

You raised the dead.

Lord, I have listened to Your words,

and on them now

I am trying to trust, and rely.

I just need one word from You God, to still this

Fire Storm that is consuming my life.



I am trying to find words to explain

My feelings, my heartache, and my pain,

But words seem to have escaped me,

I just don’t have words to express,

I don’t understand why all these things have happened,

Sorrow has left me in a state of speechlessness.



I know Your word is powerful, I know

That Your words will always stand.

Your word gives me hope, and reminds me

Of who You are, and whose I am.



Lord, You are not offended by my silence

Because You are listening to my cries,

And the words that stream down with my tears.

Even in this silence,

You are with me, Lord,

I know You are still here.



After all, I don’t think You expect me

To have the words to say, when

All that I had, all that I wanted

And all that I have hoped for

Just went up in flames.



What I held, I had to let go,

What I cherished slipped from my hands.

I know You are a God that is not unfamiliar with suffering,

You are a God that truly does understand.



I know when you walked this earth in human form,

You too, were battered, abused, and felt grief.

You know the pain of having Your heart torn,

I am sure there were times words escaped You, too,

With the sorrow, and torment You went through.



I need You to make some sense of all that has gone on,

I want You to bring justice to those who have done wrong.

God, You understand my anger, my frustration and

This volcano of emotions that need to erupt from within.

But for now, I just need You to hold me, and

Comfort me In Your Everlasting Arms, and

Let me feel safe and secure

in the shadow of Your wings.



Lord, soothe my broken heart,

Calm this storm and cause

these cruel winds to cease.

In my state of speechlessness,

Can you incline Your ear to me,

God, and wait, until

I can find the words to speak?


© K A GRAAF